Monday, March 30, 2009

Stellan Style

Our normal "not me Monday" has been switched up this Monday in honor of Mckmuffin and his family.. This is not me Monday, Stellan Style :)

I did not spend all spend every day for the past 9 days praying hard for sweet baby Stellan, begging all my FB friends to say a prayer for him....Nope not me...

There is no way I sat here and cried as I read MckMama's post last night, as an RN knowing what some of her post means to the prognosis of baby Stellan... Nope not me.... I'm NOT a crier!

Never have I plead my case to the Lord like this, for this sweet little baby who has been an inspiration to many of my families that I have delivered... Nope I would never beg like that not me.....

I didn't post on my blog about baby Stellan more then once this past week.. Nope not me, I'm not a crazy stalker!

It would make sound crazy if I admitted I stayed up late each night checking my computer or my phone for Twitter and Blog updates.. Noe not me, once again I'm not a crazy stalker!

Not once have I prayed for the wisdom of the nurses and doctors, and to bless their hands and hearts as they perform the work that the Lord wants of them.. Not once have I shared my secret prayer I say for myself each day with the health care team in the PICU, Nope not me..

I haven't been racking my brain with ideas of where we could do a photo shoot for Stellan's name gallery.. Nope not me, I'm not crafty ;) (he he)

There is no way that I love this little miracle from God, that I have never even met, nope not me....

I most certainly DID NOT feel loads of anger and resentment towards the doctor who ordered the Albuterol for Stellan and the RN that administered it.. Especially KNOWING that EVERY medical professional knows what Albuterol does to your heart rate.. Nope not me, I wouldn't judge them...

I cry out to the Lord above, to place your hand on Stellan's heart and heal his sweet baby heart.. Your so capable of providing such amazing miracles, as we've witnessed by the healthy birth of this precious boy, Lord, I beg you heal him, Embrace his family with your love and guidance, and give them the strength they need to endure this journey. In YOUR name we all pray...

Sleeping after placement of his central line

Sunday, March 29, 2009

I had great intentions of blogging tonight, to fill you in on my weekend... But after checking MckMama's blog, I just don't feel up to blogging much except for asking you to continue to pray for our sweet boy Stellan, who today turned 5 months... His heart is failing him, as he isn't perfusing blood to his extremities.... For 8 days now he has been in SVT with occasional runs of V Tach... I ask you to please pray for him, even if you just speak his name to the Lord, let Him know how much the world loves this little miracle baby...

Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress.
He sent forth his word and healed them; he rescued them from the grave.
Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for men.
Psalm 107:19-21

different things

So many different subjects to blog about.... First and foremost, please keep sweet little Stellan in your prayers, he is still in the PICU still in SVT.... My heart breaks for our miracle baby Stellan, However as I professed with Miss Giovanna: For I know the Plans I have for you declares The Lord, Plans to prosper you, not to harm you, Plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

Onto other things.... :) I'm single again... Lots of little things that I couldn't shake led up to the demise of the relationship.. However, I'm left to wonder what if what you were looking for was there all along?

Tomorrow I will recap the weekend and the classic lines heard this weekend...

Thursday, March 26, 2009

A posting from my sister!

This is courtesy of my sisters blog: hahahhahahah

Remember Brittney and her fear of these lizards?
Today I get a frantic phone call of her dealing with a 21 1/2 inch lizard in her house (alive of course!)

So here are some of the random words of the day:
ME: How do you know it's 21 1/2 inches??? BE: I deliver babies for a living! I measure babies everyday! I can eyeball how big something is! (Sad for her boyfriends)

ME: Just get a broom and push it out!

ME: How is it right now? BE: It's pressed against the wall like I yelled "STICK 'EM UP!"

And my mom, such a tech savvy messaging people on facebook saying SOMEBODY HELP HER!!! My mom is hysterical!

Okay so just how big was this lizard???? Check out the's from her phone but you get the idea

Monday, March 23, 2009

Sweet Baby Stellan

Do you remember me blogging a while back about a miracle baby Stellan, who was given a death sentance in his mothers womb, and later was born without a single problem? Well that sweet little guy is in the PICU in SVT (super ventricular tachycardia) in laymans terms a very high heartrate. Guided by the hand of God, their family is staying strong through this as they know that He is in control. Please say a prayer for Stellan and his family. (I have a button to McKMama's blog on my page if you 'd like to follow their blog)

"O Lord my God, I cried out to You, and You have healed me." (Psalm 30:2)

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Remember my sweet baby Giovanna, her mamas water broke at 24 1/7 weeks and we managed to keep that sweet baby girl healthy and inside until she was 28 1/7. She is a strong little girl, such a fighter, she went home a few weeks ago and only 36 weeks old! As a matter of fact this week would have been her due date. She is almost 7 pounds now! She was born weighing 3 lbs 4 ounces!!

On the day our sweet little "Gift from God" was born I knew what I wanted for her, I was on a mission to find this verse on a plaque for Giovanna's "shelf" in the NICU! Well after searching the world, I decided to make it myself, so I bought a greeting card with the verse and a cute white frame, and made it the way I wanted it for her bedside out of ribbons and such.

This sat by her bedside for 9 weeks as she grew strong in the NICU. Once she was home I wanted her to have something that would always remind her o the Plans the Lord had for her. My very talented friend Kristen made a bunny for her little guy, and so I thought how awesome to have Kristen make one for my sweet baby Giovanna! Here is what she made, it is so precious! Now little Giovanna will have her bunny to keep with her at all times, and on it's left foot it says Gia! My friend Kristen is so very talented, the little Bunny is a soft chenille. Well when Heather and Michael opened the bunny, they just loved it, Heathers words were "This will be an heirloom, that Gia will have forever" Thank you Kristen for making this for my sweet Giovanna and for putting so much thought and love into it!

Monday, March 9, 2009

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to">her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

I didn't get completely ready for work, drive surface streets the whole way there because the freeway was closed clock in, in a rush only to find out I wasn't on the schedule, Nope. Not me!

I didn't spend 2 days shopping for the perfect quilt for the small couch only to use it as my bedspread and then spend one night with it and decide it needed to go back to the store like I never opened it! Nope. Not me!

I certainly didn't decide it was appropriate to eat a sleeve of thin mints for breakfast this week. Nope. Not me!

There is no way I would have taken Phenergan and driven all the way into north Scottsdale in rush hour traffic, as I nodded my head falling asleep, with the windows down, A/C on full blast and music pumping, praying the whole time to God to please let me get there alive. Nope. Not me!

There is absolutely no WAY I would have accidentally gotten sick while deciding coffee or juice for breakfast and instantly have to retch in the kitchen sink of all places, and then worried about germs pour a gallon of bleach into it, Nope. Not me!

Never in my dreams would I have gone by the name "Shirley" while out on a date at a restaurant just for giggles.. Nope. Not me!

Not since junior high would I have spent 4 hours on the phone with a boy when I knew I HAD to get some sleep for the next day. Nope. Not me!

I didn't finally cave and decide after following MckMama's blog, and rejoicing in her miracle baby daily! That I had to begin the ritual of Not Me Monday! Nope. Not me!

Monday, March 2, 2009

‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through I got over you!!!

Ever feel like your holding your breath? Well I can finally say I'm breathing again, I am no longer holding my breath waiting for the dreaded 1 year mark to hit. It hit, and I survived it with flying colors. I went over to Rachaels house and a few other friends were there, we had wine and great laughs and played some games. It was a great night, and it felt good. I realized that although I didn't think I'd survive a year ago, I realized that I am surviving just fine, I have really done well this past year, and I have experienced things that have made me take a new look at life.

‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through I got over you!!! (Chris Daughtry, Over You)