Tuesday, May 25, 2010

This song reminds me of Oklahoma!!!

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water acrosst he deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Monday, May 24, 2010



More days until my Oklahoma is in Arizona with me…. I can’t wait for him to be here!!

13NumberThirteenInCircle Crummy days ago we parted ways in a desolate Wichita airport. It was that moment that I think we both knew what we truly meant to each other.. 


50th Birthday

Glorious days ago Oklahoma was sitting at work, well really as he tells the story he was relaxing at work with his feet up on the desk and thought to himself “I’m going to look for her one more time.” Meanwhile in Arizona I had just been to church and had been praying for God to give me a sign, to show me “the one”…… 50 days ago he found me… After countless searches over the years, there I finally was…..And here we finally are…..

Saturday, May 22, 2010

May 22nd

Remembering my brother, Beau today...

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

My "new" backyard

Here is a picture of Oklahomas backyard.... Looks heavenly doesn't it??  There is a huge area to the left of the tree in which he decided is where my garden will go. I can't wait to be able to grow healthy, organic vegetables for our home!! He also has a place for my compost, which he said he is going to start building.... I can't wait to see what Oklahoma comes up with.... After dinner one night we sat out on the deck enjoying the weather talking... Oklahoma (the state not him) is such a simpler way of life, I love it.....


"If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything" Mark Twain

Things can be complicated......... Sometimes I don't think people realize that when they don't tell the truth they are making things more complicated... Usually if your truthful it might hurt a little but at least it doesn't become complicated..... Sooner or later little falsities start coming out... Falsities, is that even a word? I don't know and I don't care....It's 0425 in the morning and I started thinking about things like the truth....

Why is it so few people value the truth anymore? Here's the thing, you start out believing and trusting people and then someone takes a little piece away from you here and there, so you trust a little less... Then someone you love lies, and a little bit more is lost, then someone you trust, someone who should never let you down, that person lies, it may be a white lie, and then that becomes the straw that breaks the camels back.... You no longer have trust anymore..

You second guess everything, every action, every statement, every feeling...... People underestimate the destruction of lies.... You could lie about something simple like hmmmmmm I don't know here is a good example: "I went to church today" well if you didn't really go to church then why lie about it? If you are capable of lying about little things, then what substantially large things are you capable of lying of?

Furthermore if you feel comfortable lying about little things to someone you love and care for then something is wrong..........

Lies destroy people, they have a domino effect, they are very destructive and they have long term effects....

Saturday, May 15, 2010

4 days ago.......

4 days ago I said goodbye to Oklahoma!! 4 days ago we started another countdown 12 more days and Oklahoma makes his first visit to Arizona! He is going to fly into Sky Harbor (Yikes) Yes, I am a titch worried for him, because it will be a little overwhelming in our GiNoRmOuS airport for him. However I am sure he will do just fine.....

We have so much planned for his trip to Arizona because there are so many different people that need to meet him!! I'm so excited for my friends and family to meet him!

First on the agenda will be to get some pictures of us together so we can make everyone happy!! Ya hear that Oklahoma? We ARE going to take a picture together..... ;)  50 kisses to you sweets!! XOXO

Thursday, May 13, 2010

My trip to OK

Monday was a nice day it was overcast and cool outside, we went for a drive around town site seeing…. It was really neat because I saw a bunch of different animals and the scenery is so green there it is just beautiful, being an AZ native things like rolling hills of green grass is something you only see on a golf course!

We were out at the lake and the loud siren that comes on the radio here in AZ that always says “This is a test of the emergency broadcast system” came over Oklahoma's radio… Except this wasn’t a test, this was a tornado warning, they used words such as “life threatening emergency” Holy smokes I think my eyes became huge saucers!!!!!!!!!! Well good old Oklahoma said “Oh honey don’t worry we’ll head to moms” (Gosh sometimes the things he says melts my hear just by him saying them with that precious little accent!!) So off to Newkirk we went in the event we needed to get into the storm shelter!!! Well that storm passed right around us and we were able to head back home to Ponca. That was our excitement for the day. We then headed to the grocery store to get a few things for dinner. I made us dinner that night and then we sat around back for a bit enjoying the weather.

Tuesday we went to his moms work to spend some time with her and I met 2 more aunts. It was nice to sit around and visit with more of Oklahoma’s family. He has this beautiful blanket at his house that we snuggled in all week, and when were were at the Kaw City museum, he bought me one to have here in AZ! That blanket has since become my little bit of Oklahoma that I have here with me, and it brings me comfort!!

We decided to head to Wichita and get some dinner before I left that night. We finally got into the airport and all checked in, we sat around a bit and then decided it was time to say our goodbyes.

Oh that was not good at all, I think we both tried our best to just be strong but saying goodbye was horrible, dreadful, lousy, awful, hideous, terrible, cruel, Heartbreaking…… I walked through that security line and just felt awful… I had some time until my plane took off so I went and sat in the bar and stared out that window and just cried. I am not kidding you I cried that entire flight to Denver! I think the folks on the plane thought I was nuts, the flight attendant brought me napkins LOL. I literally felt the heartache of leaving my love behind.

I have never-felt-like-this-before….

Sunday, May 9, 2010


28 days seemed like an eternity and then before I knew it, it was 1 day away. I found myself completely out of sorts. I went to work and God love my coworkers because they were able to keep me squared away for 4 hours. Luckily I had someone cover the rest of my shift so I could go to my parents for dinner and home to pack. The plan was to be home and in bed by 8pm... Well hmmm sometimes plans don't turn out the way I want them too... Of course I had a great dinner with my family and of course I got the "talk" from my dad.......

Then I left and went to Target, because I needed a phone charger to take with me. Oh geez bad idea.... Before long I was pacing the isles of Target and sweating, literally sweating buckets and my mouth became dry and I couldn't talk or text LOL Oklahoma text me and I just ignored it because I didn't want to talk to anyone... In hindsight that was a bad idea, I should have called the bestie so she could talk me out of there LOL

So Oklahoma finally called me on my way home and he set my mind at ease, well at least for the time being.... I was home by about 930 and began packing.... I was in bed by 11 and was anxiously awaiting the alarm to go off at 0230!!!

The second that alarm went off I literally jumped out of bed and was ready to get in the shower!! I woke up with a complete sense of peace, I didn't have a single concern or worry about going. Once at the airport I was on the plane waiting to take off.... The strangest thing happened, I literally sat there and every single moment that had transpired the previous 28 days flashed through my mind.  Every phone conversation, every text, every facebook message..... Then suddenly I was just ready to be there with hm. I arrived in Denver and he called me, we chatted for a bit and then I was on the plane again headed to Wichita...

Holy smokes flat land! What the heck! Luckily the man next to me was able to explain to me about their flat lands and their farms etc. But wow.... So I get off the plane at this tiny itty bitty airport....... The man who sat next to me walked me all the way to baggage, (Ummmm like I was going to get lost in that tiny airport?) That's when I saw him........

Oklahoma was there.... Ahhhh just like I remembered my sweet boy... So we greeted each other with a hug hello and I met his mom. It felt surreal to be there and to be able to actually touch him, to feel him.....

That first day in OK with him was good, I got the grand tour of Newkirk and Ponca City!!! We went up to the Walmart and bought a few things and then came home and I cooked us dinner, his sister came over that night and we all just hung out for a bit.

Saturday morning I woke up and went on my run, It is so beautiful here, nothing at all like I expected!! It is so green and so many trees!! It was a great run, the weather was nice and cool. Later we went to a store that had an ENTIRE natural food section.. I was in heaven, they even had organic produce! Yup, totally the things that get me excited! That night we cooked out at his sisters house and then we went to the figure 8 car races. Wait until I post those pictures! But it was fun, something I have never done before, but fun! Oh yeah, and his 2 older kids were there so I got to meet them, and I think it was better that it was impromptu because I didn't have a chance to worry about the big meeting... They were nice to me so that was good.

Sunday (today) was a lazy day around the house, which was great!!! We just watched TV and spent time together. It stormed a titch, which was nice! Oh, and we went to Braum's and got ice cream and I took a few pictures of the city.

Ok, I'll post more when I have time, and I'll include pictures too..... 2 more days left here..........

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


oklahomaYup there is Oklahoma, it’s 1066 miles away from where I live….
I suppose it’s time to bring you up to speed about Oklahoma! So back to the Sunday of Easter, I received a FB friend request from Oklahoma. WOW I thought I haven’t seen him since September of  1997! Yes, I did just say 1997! I know that was a long time ago  over a decade ago! So I waited until Monday when I had time and we exchanged a few pleasantries via facebook email. He sent me his phone number and said “If I’m not on here later text me” I was getting ready to go meet a friend for dinner and so I though “hmmmm should I do this or not, because I know where this will go” I went about getting ready and then I decided to send the text.

“So you’ve looked for me before huh? Why?”

Yes I know weirdo, why was that my opening text? But he replies with “ I have never forgotten you.” Hook line and sinker… Well we continued to text throughout my ENTIRE dinner (I know totally rude, have I no manners) Before long we had text from 5pm until 10pm and it was time to get some sleep.

We picked up with the texting the next day and low and behold by afternoon my phone was ringing, he had called me! We talked for 2 hours! He called me later that night and we talked another hour and a half!! There was so much to say to this person I hadn’t seen in over a decade, there was so many funny stories he had to share, there were some phone calls that I felt could have lasted forever and I never would have gotten tired of him or the sound of his voice or the sweet little way he’d say “Well honey” with his precious Oklahoma accent.

By that Friday we decided we needed to see each other! Yes, I said by that Friday, 5 days later we knew we wanted to see each other in person and see where this was headed. By that evening it was official I was booked on a flight to Oklahoma…. There was only one problem…. It was not for 4 more weeks, we had to wait 28 days!